I love it when you call me Big Pappa!

There is nothing like driving around LA when it's rush hour traffic and pouring down rain. Needless to say it put me in a grumpy mood. Even my Liz Phair CD couldn't keep me from screaming curses at dumbass drivers. Then this really romantic love song came on and I really felt my loneliness. That feeling has become a stuffed animal in the back of my room that i forget is there until I notice it. It's better now that I have started training, but there is just something missing. But what I have learned about loneliness is that it's not the worst thing one can feel. I think that is clear from recent events that there is worse pain than mine. Much worse.
Yet, I am the center of my life when it comes down to it. I want someone to love and to love me back. It's not like I want to get married or anything, I just want to have something that makes me excited. Something that makes me want to back to the gym. Something that gives me tingles in my warm and cozy places.
But you know if I met that guy I would most likely be here writing about how I wish I could have the bed to myself. Or even worse how he broke my heart. All I know is that its not a good idea to listen to cheesy romantic songs when I'm on my period.