You had to sneak into my room ’just’ to read my diary. Oh, it was just to see, just to see (all the things you knew I’d written about you...)

There was a documentary last night about the Plague that spread through Europe in the fourteenth century that included personal accounts of the events, mostly journals. Of course these journals were by the members of the upper classes because the peasants were usually illiterate. Little did these men know that their words would last for centuries. That just amazes me.
I have been regularly keeping a journal since December 29, 1996 and I plan on keeping one until I die. Maybe in the future there will be some students researching my journals to get a picture of what society was like during the change of the millennium. I think they will be disappointed because I don't leave my apartment much.
I have looked up the seventh line of the fiftieth page and decided to share them. After having written them down and reading them together I feel this is an accurate account of the last nine years.
12-29-96 to 9-8-97 *from 1-31-97
"I love Him; He loves me."

9-10-97 to 6-8-98 *from 11-27-97
"She was talking about how we need to spend time alone with God and that, 'it is a good thing to remember that we are here not to pester God but to adore Him.'"

6-14-98 to 2-17-00 *from 8-9-98
"I want depth to know the secrets of an ancient event,
Where you hung on a tree hoping I would repent"

2-18-00 to 10-05-00 *from 5-29-00
"My bikini's elastic quitted so it kept falling off by the wave's pressure."

10-6-00 to 2-18-01 *from 11-5-00
"I want a balance of adult and child."

2-18-01 to 11-29-01 *from 5-6-01
"The other day she even walked around without a bra on."

12-3-01 to 3-26-02 *from 1-18-02
"I guess that's noone else’s fault but mine."

3-27-02 to 12-7-02 *from 5-7-02
"I guess it's because I'm on academic probation right now."

12-9-02 to 9-29-03 *from 2-19-03
"I'm not a kid anymore."

(At this time I lost a journal during a move)
5-21-04 to 10-25-05 *from 8-8-04
"So, I'm having major mood shifts, you might want to call me the San Andres of emotions."

3-13-05 to 4-26-05 *from 4-26-05
"I would like something in or closer to LA but that's just convenience”

(Current Journal)5-8-05 to ??? *from 6-2-05
"If this is something he does then I'm better off without that wacko factor in my life."

Intriguing I know. It seems that most of these sentences were written after a statement of some kind. If I'd just pick the sixth sentence then there would be an entirely different picture of who I am. I still can't read my journal all the way through because I end up cringing or crying. Sometimes I happen upon an entry that describes an event I have no memory of. It was important at the time because I wrote it down, but now it's gone. Not even a faint memory, just no recollection at all. I guess that's why I keep a journal.