Follow all the zany antics and adventures of a city-fied California girl as she adjusts to small town life in Missouri.
Or something cliched like that.
I've been looking and printing up articles all day, so I'm a bit dazed right now.
Something happened yesterday that made me feel both free and heavy at the same time. I'm not gonna go into it, but it involves a boy named Brian who I was once in love with many, many years ago. Now, after ten years I'm done, drained of any love and affection I once had for this boy. Now I'm bordering on disgust that will soon turn into indifference. I hope.
But I once was in love. I once felt something that made me feel like I was a good person. And it ended badly. That's what happened. I no longer feel the need to reinvent history. I just want to live my life as it is, with honesty and integrity. It's over.
My last words to this corpse before I bury it, I will leave to Sia, because I've said all I wanna say:
I've treated myself poorly and must apologize for that. So, Debbye, I must apologize for:
Putting you in the presence of silly, emotionally stunted boys whose utter lack of regard for your feelings left you questioning your self-worth and lovability.
Making you even think that your self-worth is connected to the affection of another person rather than your own accomplishments and sense of self.
Brian. We're gonna laugh about that one later over some beers. Jeez, whew, was that a royal fuck-up...
And I thought I had grown out of the SITC phase. I guess there will always be a part of me that wants cocktails, strappy sandals and my very own Mr. Big.